A lot has changed since that unfortunate sad day in September, for one I can't travel freely as I could before then. Me and a lot of other people around the world have to deal with the dirty looks and security checks! I go at the check in counter and the smiling lady looks at the passport and suddenly the smile goes away, its like when we play happy face sad face with kids. :P
From then onwards the questions and the wait starts, I am politely told that my passport needs to get checked, incidentally it happens with all names which seem a little too out of place or so I have been told. So after spending 15-20 at the desk I am told everything is good.....which I knew and could have told them if they had asked me!! Anyways by that time people have already started giving me the stares.....the "oh so what have you done?" and the "now why did you have to take the same flight as me!!" ones. You go past the immigration where they check your passport 4 times over and around each way to find something that isn't there before letting you through to security check in. Now this is the fun part. The question "Have you packed this pack by yourself?" always seems to find a place somewhere between the "hello" and "you're right to go", even if they haven't seen anything out of place in the x-ray check. Who do they would've done it.....the tooth fairy?? Last I heard the tooth fairy wasn't even leaving money under the kids pillow for the tooth she took!! (must be because of the housing crisis or the interest rates rising!) Well anyways after you're done with that we have this really nice person standing right there and "you" yes "you" are the winner of the "you've been randomly picked to get the particles of your clothes tested" to ensure you really aren't carrying anything on the plane the bloody metal detector hasn't detected!! And did I mention that the victim....oops I mean the "winner" is randomly selected and this has nothing to do with the appearance........yeah right!!
And all of this is before you board the plane. Yes, now you would understand why you should be at the airport at least 2 hours before departure time!! So anyways you board the flight and are seated in your seat. There is always one idiot (gender independent here) who's gonna stare at you for at least the period of time it takes to make you feel really really uncomfortable or show that person the special finger! You wait for the flight to take off and when it does your your worst fear suddenly comes true...............you have been seated two seats away from a couple with a baby who makes it a point to cry the whole way to your destination!! So you have had a rough time while on ground and rest assured it is going to be a one hell (no pun intended) of a journey in the air. By the time you settle down after the crying baby has been put to rest (no not in that way....for god's sake its a baby!!) you look around to find the "idiot" still staring at you, now trying your best not to walk up and punch the shit of him/her....but you keep control of that feeling. The thing I find soothing is taking one of those push click pens and looking directly at that person and then looking the the pen and slowly clicking it. It somehow scares them shitless and you can sit and enjoy the in-flight entertainment for some time!!
While we are flying I'll take us back to an experience of mine sometime back. I was sitting next this one "idiot" who was giving me the shits since the start of the flight and then suddenly there was some turbulence and the plane went into a frenzy, so here I am clutching the seats and then I turn around and see him looking at me as if I made it happen. I mean how stupid can a person be.
Anyways returning to our flight, so after spending the trip with the crying baby, the irritating "idiot" and the in-flight entertainment we safely make it to the ground. We go through another round of questions and finally make it out of the airport!! Too bad it ain't gonna be long after which we have to do it again!! Till then Fly Safe!! :)

The world of communication has developed so much that we now interact with friends and strangers at times sitting half way through the world. This brings me to the phenomenon of social networking sites likes Facebook and Orkut. Now we have come to either be so reliant on it that some of us love it to the point of poking/scrapping at every other minute, or we hate it so much that we try and try to stay away from them at any cost. Love it or hate it, these sites are here to stay and well if that means that people are bound to forget what it was to meet and greet in real life face to face then be it.
I like facebook and orkut as it has made me find lots of old school friends who I lost touch with since I left school. There was this overwhelming sense of excitement hearing from them, getting to know what they are doing, where they have been and recollecting all the old memories (ok so that does sound like I am a bit ancient.....but I am not!!).
I was reading an article in a magazine which had divided it into two sections and posted something like a debate on loving/hating facebook. A guy had said how he loved it as it had helped him make so many friends even before going to the university that he felt like he had been there for years. He also went about how communicating with everyone got easier too as all he had to do was update his status so everyone could know if he did not respond to calls instead of calling everyone back and telling them why he couldn't get back to them. On the flip side a chic wrote in saying how facebook had practically taken hold of her life the minute she created her account and how she would have to check it every other minute so as not to miss any messages or actions from a friend. She further describes how this made her so socially insociable (that's my word...coz i like the way it sound!! :P) that in real life she became a recluse only communicating in the virtual world.
Now whatever said and done I think I like the blokes version of why we should love facebook as much as he does coz he used the technology in his favour. He used it to make friends and went to uni and met them. He used the technology to communicate with people why he's away and can't be contacted or whatever he needs to tell them. He didn't become so involved in it (well hopefully not) that he like this lady started to isolate himself from people around him.
When we deal with anything in excess it becomes a problem so whatever we do we should find the right balance and this is no exception! So the next time you do poke someone, try and call some other friend and talk to them also just to maintain the balance!! :P

Commitment. What is about it that makes most men run for the hills? Us guys, well most of them, just can't give into this for reasons which sometimes even we don't understand. The word usually gives us this image of locking ourselves in a shackles and handing over the keys.....forever!!!
Now ladies if u please imagine putting yourselves into this position I think we can somehow manage to get on the same page even if its only half the page in this context. Plus we think it's a way of admiring the beauty created by God and think its a crime if we just picked one which would be so unfair.
But all said and done, its not like we don't ever want to be stable and love someone for the rest of our lives, we do but we just get that realization slowly.....in some cases really slowly. Still, when we do commit to someone, and here I am talking about people who take time in doing it not the ones who jump into it and realise its not for them and do "bad" things (somehow I am beginning to feel like a priest here....if you have read the last entry this one would just confirm it!!), the commitment is for life! When we say those four words, "Will you trap me?"...oops i mean "Will you marry me?" you can be assured its true to the last blood in the body.
So if anyone is paranoid about their partner not showing commitment, relax a bit and enjoy the life because when he/she is ready you have a lifetime to relish that.

Laundry! The only thing that even comes close to being a little more annoying is when you have to Press/Iron (pick whatever word you use for it, or well if your one of the lazy ones whichever word your mom/wife/maid uses!!) those clothes!! Well the other thing is that people who have a washing machine at home might not really feel that way but I have to carry my dirty linen (don't start thinking now) all the way to a laundromat. Now laundromats are not really as glamorous as shown in movies or TV serials. No...your not going to find an attractive girl wanting to chat you up, the closest you'll get is some old person asking you for some change and then talking about how costly it is nowadays to wash clothes which goes on to about all the other things costing a hand and a leg. Now I can imagine the plight but then please people....get over it. I mean here I am cleaning away the dirt and suddenly I get to listen to the confessions too, all of a sudden I feel I have a lot of power and the laundromat has changed into something more divine. I am riding on my high when the machine beeps bringing an end to the wash and my power and its time to chuck the "clean "clothes into the drier to make feel clean and "fresh"!! All while the transistor....i mean the elderly... is still going on. The good thing about the drier is that it keeps you entertained with the clothes going round and round and back and forth. It is better than listening to how much the cost of a cup of washing detergent has increased in 20 years, it costs 20 cents, bring in your own if you are so tight about it.
The other thing while going to the laundromat is however prepared you are you will always fall short of coins. It is bound to happen and there is almost nothing that can prepare you for it. Luckily for me my one has the owner there who changes it then and there!!
For people out there who don't wash their clothes, no names listed to protect the irritant, its not all about taking a shower....its about cleaning your clothes too!!

Closure......a very tricky word that one. How is it that one achieves this closure in a relationship which has had lots of emotions attached to it. People always advice others how they should not stall their life and rue on what has been finished, but has it really been finished? Maybe it has physically but how does one put away feelings which have been developed over a period of time. How do we get on with life when the life we made has just been given the chop.
Time heals everything and somewhere down the line we do forget about certain things but do we forget the people involved? If I take into account my experience(s), I have to say that I have never really forgotten the person as somehow when you choose to be with someone you somehow get attached to that person and although over time you tend to forget things its just impossible to detach the person from the memories.
So coming back to closure and how to achieve it, well different people employ different methods and it can be pretty unconventional when it comes to it. Apparently from what I have read, Neyo (yes the singer...the one who sang "So Sick") got over his relationship by writing and singing songs. Now that to me is a bit bonkers, I mean getting things out from your system I get but actually moving on from a relationship by singing songs?? A bit crazy if you ask me. But then other people have their own ways the conventional ones being finding another girl/guy (although don't let it be a rebound one), having meaningless sex, cry your heart out (it does annoy people so be aware of it!!), get yourself busy doing lots of things so that you don't have time to think about it, go out and party or you could just give it some time and think of all the good memories which you came out with from that relationship. The last one can take ages and your emotions can be like a roller coaster but in the end you come out with a positive note.
Life has a pretty funny way of teaching us lessons and sometimes these can be pretty harsh but if we hang in there and don't do anything drastic (if you read the papers...the American news has all sorts of info on this) it is all good!!
So until we or I get to experience this thing called closure....I think I will just hang in there and wait for someone special to come!!

Boredom......its like this particular feeling doesn't like to let you be. It keeps coming back as a bad dream or a horrible (well just over-emphasizing the point) ex you keep running away from!!
In my case it is usually caused coz i can't concentrate on one thing for a long time......the term long here is relatively very very short!! :P
So how does one keep his/her concentration up and running?? Lots of people say you should try meditation but has anyone really noticed how "Boring" meditation is!!! You sit down in silence and you can either chant something slowly or the other option is you play some slow meditative music. Now why should anyone take all the trouble to do that when you can just sleep albeit the sleep might not be as smooth as when you slept when you were younger but sleep never hurt anyone!! As a matter of fact some research done somewhere (yes i know i am very helpful when it comes to details!!) claims that we don't get enough sleep(we should sleep at least 8 hours to make sure our body fixes all those things it needs to fix!!) and so we are under extreme stress and what not!! So after reading that, it is normal that your level of anxiety is going to hit the roof or ceiling or whatever closest thing you can match with them. So instead of trying to do something as lame as meditation why don't people utilise that time and sleep!!
Apparently the two great stress busters are supposed to be sleep and sex and well coz i want to keep things clean I am not going to go into the later and I think I have made a point on sleep already so now I think I am getting bored of this and well I think i should go and sleep. Anyways its past 1 am and i need to get up in the morning......so much for my 8 hours and I see my stress levels increasing already!!! until next time keep sleeping and take care!! :)

Welcome to Insanity!! Its pretty much like waking up and looking around you. The room's a chaos and you haven't even walked out of it!!
As much as I am always convincing myself that I am not crazy.....just a little unwell, come Rob Thomas with his very well written song "Unwell", I end up with Gnarles Barkley's "Crazy" in my head. Now my head is a commotion of thoughts all going aloud at once, if that makes any sense to anyone coz i have stopped trying to make sense of it.
Basically if you have come here to read something worthwhile.....well sorry to burst your bubble but this is just gonna be a blabbering outburst which has no head or tail..........or will it??? Depends if you are really bored and can be bothered going through word after word trying to find some meaning out of it.
If you still have stuck to reading till this point I welcome you to my insanity!! Hope you enjoy the experience and remain sane after it too!! :)